No, We Don’t Have To Forgive You

today. we must protect ourselves from our protectors. citizens from officers laypeople from scholars children from parents women from men wives from husbands husbands from wives and our souls         from ourselves. —excerpt of even if. by Umm Zakiyyah The other day I read this post online, and it immediately hit my heart: Sometimes people pretend you’re a bad person …

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Miracles Are Tests of Faith, Not Proof of Sainthood

“Verily, the most honorable of you with Allah is that [believer] who has taqwaa (a lifestyle of sincerely guarding oneself from spiritual harm in this world and in the Hereafter).” —Qur’an (Al-Hujuraat, 49:13) “He performed miracles!” some say to defend their worship of “saints” and graves, and blindly following their beloved spiritual teachers. “That’s proof that he’s from the awliyaa …

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Today I Feel More Peace in My Heart

“On the Day you shall see the believing men and the believing women their light running forward before them and by their right hands. [Their greeting will be]: ‘Glad tidings for you this Day! Gardens under which rivers flow (Paradise), to dwell therein forever! Truly, this is the great success!’” —Qur’an (Al-Hadeed, 57:12) Today I feel more peace in my …

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Protecting Your Home and Soul from the Village

“It takes a whole village to raise a child.” —African proverb The more I heal emotionally and spiritually, the more my heart realizes that my healing journey is so much bigger than me. Yes, it’s a nourishment I owe my own soul first and foremost. But it’s also a nourishment I owe my loved ones and my sisters and brothers …

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Burying Souls To Build Legacies: Healing in Solitude (Day 4)

“If Allah loves a person, He calls out to [the angel] Gabriel, saying, ‘Allah loves so-and-so, O Gabriel, so love him.’ So Gabriel loves him and then announces in the Heavens: ‘Allah has loved so and-so, therefore love him.’ So all the dwellers of the Heavens would love him, and then he is granted the pleasure of the people on …

The Story Locked In My Soul: Healing in Solitude (Day 3)

“We tend to see the world in binary terms—sinner or saint, angel or devil—but I think life is much more nuanced than that.” —Judy Smith, Good Self, Bad Self The “Healing in Solitude” reflections offer a glimpse into the heart of Umm Zakiyyah, as she continues her emotional healing journey during the social distancing lockdown amidst the coronavirus epidemic. Each …

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A Seat In My Restless Soul: Healing in Solitude (Day 2)

“Pain is a color. I realize that now. It’s the color of life. Or maybe it’s the canvas. But either way, I’m going to try to paint some strokes of love, patience and gratitude in the foreground.” —from the journal of Umm Zakiyyah The “Healing in Solitude” reflections offer a glimpse into the heart of Umm Zakiyyah, as she continues …

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Journey of a Thousand Miles: Healing in Solitude (Day 1)

“A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.” —Chinese proverb The “Healing in Solitude” reflections offer a glimpse into the heart of Umm Zakiyyah, as she continues her emotional healing journey during the social distancing lockdown amidst the coronavirus epidemic. Each journal reflection represents a “new day” in her healing journey and/or a new day in the …