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Emotional Pain Doesn’t Justify Changing the Religion

“Every trial that happens to you in life is doing two things: pointing you to who your Lord is, and bringing to surface who your ‘lord’ is in your heart. And everything you say or do thereafter is either a testimony for you or against you—in preparation to expose to you one last time the spiritual state of your soul. …

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Compassion Means Supporting Sin? Idols of Emotionalism and Sexuality

“Beware of emotionalism. It is like a cheating spouse. Faithful to nothing except what excites it at the moment. Follow it and you’ll find yourself constantly off balance, furious, and confused, even if you’ve no idea why. Principles and morality are more dependable. They remain faithful, no matter what excitement is happening in the world. So choose principles and morality …

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We Need Leaders Protecting Us, Not Their Pride

Where are the men? They are scowling at me for my “wrong” hijab. SubhaanAllah! Where are the men? They are criticizing me for fearing Allah on my job. O Allah! Where are the men? They are making jokes about me and the suffering I’ve endured. Yaa Rabb! Where are the men? They are shaking hands and patting each other on …

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I Guess We All Need Someone To Blame

“And you have more knowledge than the imam, huh?” she asked, mockery in her tone. I said nothing to this question, which was more a dare and a threat than it was a sincere inquiry. Whenever our conversations devolved into pulling rank, I lost interest in continuing the discussion. She knew just as well as I did that spiritual truth …

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Are You Worshipping Your Imam or Sheikh?

I was both shocked and heartbroken when I found myself on the receiving end of my community’s slander and character defamation, and it had all been incited when I chose my soul over blindly following the community imam. As I mentioned in my blog “Be Prepared To Be Alone:” I was in my mid-twenties at the time, and I had …

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Be Prepared To Be Alone

“If what the imam is teaching is wrong,” a community elder told me, “then why would Allah bless him with all these followers?” I was in my mid-twenties at the time, and I had just begun my own spiritual journey of studying Qur’an and the prophetic teachings and striving my level best to do what I sincerely believed Allah required …

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Be Merciful to Righteous and Sinful Souls. No Need To Choose

Nothing in this world belongs to you. Nothing. Not even your own soul is yours, as it will be returned to its Owner once this earthly journey of yours is complete. And all those worldly comforts and human relationships you thought you couldn’t live without? They were just temporary companions on your journey home. They were divine mercies—and tests—scattered along …

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Wronging Others For the Sake of Justice

right to do wrong. i have the right to abuse you because you remind me of other abusers —unhealed wounds I know that for some people, my sharing the story of how I almost left Islam and of how I reached such a dark place that I nearly took my own life is a cause for mockery and condescension toward …

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A Mistress Has No Lord?

This must be what it feels like to give up on your soul, I remember thinking years ago when I nearly left Islam. During that difficult time, I began to understand emotional pain like I never did before. I began to understand spiritual darkness like I never did before. And I began to understand sin like I never did before. …