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I’m Divorced Now: Heartbreak and Healing

I’m divorced now and healing in community instead of shame. Learn more about my story and lessons in the UZ Heart & Soul Care community.  CLICK HERE Also, join the UZ email list for UZ course announcements and live classes, where I share the lessons I’m learning on this journey, as well as other UZ Heart & Soul Care reflections: …

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Therapists Replace God, Pills Replace Prayer?

“Hope is not defined by the absence of hardship. Rather, hope is found in God’s grace in the midst of hardship. Hope is found in His promise to give us a future.” ―Stuart Scott “Some people just don’t understand how things like anxiety and depression can make it impossible to pray,” the woman said. “It’s so frustrating to see so …

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Racism Is Trauma, But We Are People Too

equal opportunity. satan doesn’t discriminate he believes in equality for all black white male female rich or poor he cares not— so long as hell is filled with us all. —excerpt of even if. by Umm Zakiyyah Like so many other survivors of daily racism, I’ve recently retreated into my personal space to take care of my heart and soul—and …

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First, Remove the Chains from Your Heart

“No, we are not all in the same boat. We are all in the same storm. There is a huge difference.” —via @bilqeesquick (Instagram) How can I help? so many ask. Start by understanding what boat you’re really in. But that’s only possible if you first understand the storms of your own heart and soul—and the hidden chains keeping you …

No, We Don’t Have To Forgive You

today. we must protect ourselves from our protectors. citizens from officers laypeople from scholars children from parents women from men wives from husbands husbands from wives and our souls         from ourselves. —excerpt of even if. by Umm Zakiyyah The other day I read this post online, and it immediately hit my heart: Sometimes people pretend you’re a bad person …

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Miracles Are Tests of Faith, Not Proof of Sainthood

“Verily, the most honorable of you with Allah is that [believer] who has taqwaa (a lifestyle of sincerely guarding oneself from spiritual harm in this world and in the Hereafter).” —Qur’an (Al-Hujuraat, 49:13) “He performed miracles!” some say to defend their worship of “saints” and graves, and blindly following their beloved spiritual teachers. “That’s proof that he’s from the awliyaa …

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Today I Feel More Peace in My Heart

“On the Day you shall see the believing men and the believing women their light running forward before them and by their right hands. [Their greeting will be]: ‘Glad tidings for you this Day! Gardens under which rivers flow (Paradise), to dwell therein forever! Truly, this is the great success!’” —Qur’an (Al-Hadeed, 57:12) Today I feel more peace in my …

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Burying Souls To Build Legacies: Healing in Solitude (Day 4)

“If Allah loves a person, He calls out to [the angel] Gabriel, saying, ‘Allah loves so-and-so, O Gabriel, so love him.’ So Gabriel loves him and then announces in the Heavens: ‘Allah has loved so and-so, therefore love him.’ So all the dwellers of the Heavens would love him, and then he is granted the pleasure of the people on …

The Story Locked In My Soul: Healing in Solitude (Day 3)

“We tend to see the world in binary terms—sinner or saint, angel or devil—but I think life is much more nuanced than that.” —Judy Smith, Good Self, Bad Self The “Healing in Solitude” reflections offer a glimpse into the heart of Umm Zakiyyah, as she continues her emotional healing journey during the social distancing lockdown amidst the coronavirus epidemic. Each …

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A Seat In My Restless Soul: Healing in Solitude (Day 2)

“Pain is a color. I realize that now. It’s the color of life. Or maybe it’s the canvas. But either way, I’m going to try to paint some strokes of love, patience and gratitude in the foreground.” —from the journal of Umm Zakiyyah The “Healing in Solitude” reflections offer a glimpse into the heart of Umm Zakiyyah, as she continues …