The Stolen Hijab

When I saw her, I averted my gaze and walked toward my locker. I adjusted my backpack on my shoulder and squinted my eyes as if in concentration. I pretended that I had not seen her, that she and I did not know each other outside of school—and that I did not know she was Muslim too. But the image …

Suffering from Religious OCD?

“Sweetie, I miss you so much,” Samantha’s mother said. “Will you come visit during the holidays? I have so much I want to ask you.” Samantha kept the phone pressed to her ear as her heart constricted in anxiety. About six months ago, Samantha finally got up the nerve to tell her mother that she’d converted to Islam. At the …

Walking Guilty, the Weight of Doubt & Sin

Listen to audio here. Or read full blog below: I thought I had it all figured out. I know that sounds cliché, naïve even, but it’s true. I wasn’t going to compromise my soul.  I wasn’t going to open myself up to sin. I wasn’t going to Hell with my eyes open. Yes, I knew it wouldn’t be easy. I knew …

Walking Guilty, the Weight of Doubt & Sin

Listen to audio here. Or read full blog below: I thought I had it all figured out. I know that sounds cliché, naïve even, but it’s true. I wasn’t going to compromise my soul.  I wasn’t going to open myself up to sin. I wasn’t going to Hell with my eyes open. Yes, I knew it wouldn’t be easy. I knew …

Is Music a Pillar of Islam?

It’s a common saying that you’ll know a tree by its fruits. And in my life, time and time again, I’ve found this to be true. Whenever I’m talking to someone about my own spiritual journey, I often share my stages of spiritual development and how with each step I’ve taken, I’ve seen the magnificent fruit of faith blossom in …

Is Beauty Evil?

“It’s really difficult to walk around Muslims feeling broken inside, and the only thing they think needs fixing is a piece of cloth on your head.” —from the journal of Umm Zakiyyah Listen to podcast in UZ app or read blog below: I suppose it was inevitable that I’d write this blog. I myself have been on multiple sides of the …

I Never Thought It Would Be Me

Author Umm Zakiyyah discusses how she once doubted she could be Muslim, and how this spiritual struggle inspired UZ Reflections videos, podcasts, and blogs on spiritual crisis and rebirth.

‘I’m Taking Off This Veil!’

Finding the Middle Ground© The Niqaab Club When my husband and I moved to a new city in America, I had been wearing the niqaab (face veil) for about a year. In our new community, I met Muslims from various backgrounds, and I loved the diversity. It was one of the first times I felt part of an “ummah”—part of …

The Danger of Covering for Men

“No,” I said, disagreeing good-naturedly as I stood before the room of American college students. “I think you do understand.” I paused before adding, “Every woman in this room understands why Muslim women cover like they do.” I walked from behind the podium until I was directly in front of the crowd. “Picture this,” I said to the women in …